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It has been a long time since I have been on my blog. I am updating you on my life now. I have gotten my bridge in the front of my mouth and also my two partial plates. I can eat better now but the teeth seem very strange since I was without them for eight months. I have recovered very well. I still have some lingering difficulties. I can live with them though.

We had our annual fourth-of-July get-to-gather and has a really good day. We have celebrated many birthdays since I was last on. The oldest member was J.C. my wife's dad who turned 90. He is doing good for that age.

We are working in vacation bib*le sch*ool at our church this week. It is at night this year. We are having a fairly good turn out. Though it is better in the day time. I am the photographer. I have taken many pictures.

My pastor asked for us to tell one person this week how we came to know Jesus. I promised I would and I decided to tell everyone who reads this blog.

I was 13 years old when one revival day my mom talked me into going up and confessing to know Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I did it for her but I was not saved. I married at 20 and my wife and I attended church sometime. She was a Christian. I was being convicted that I needed Him and one Sunday I went forward and accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and was baptised. Many years passed and I felt saved at times and others not. I as you may know from previous blogs suffer from depression and anxiety. I had a really bad bout with this for a year or so when my children were very young. I was at work one day and felt compelled to go to my church and meet with my pastor. I did and met with him in his office. I was suffering from depression at that time. I felt again that I was not saved. I poured out my heart and again accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior. Now you do not have to do this but once if it is real the first time. I cannot tell you which time it was real. I do know that I know God and Jesus. I know He helped me through depression and my accident. I still suffer from depression. I still have doubts weather I am saved of not and people tell me if you are you know without a doubt that you are but I tell you and them that if you have illnesses like depression and anxiety you do not always think rationally. You have to walk a mile in other peoples shoes to know their feelings. So if you are a Christian and having doubts in this matter, you cannot keep being saved over and over as I was trying to do, three times in fact. You have to finally come to the conclusion that you are and that is that. I do not know how you do that because I haven't been able to but I am trying. I hear people talk about how they know without a doubt and I long for that even though I know I am saved. I hope I haven't confused anyone. In closing to know that you know that you know (an old saying) is very hard for me and I imagine it is for many of you. That is my conversion experience and I hope that it has help others and not hurt. I am a Christian who struggles with different things each day, but if you trust God to guide you He will.

Your friend, Larry